I am really tired, haven't slept much since leaving Boston, a few minutes here and there. I haven't gotten back into painting or anything creative. I have had a lot going through my mind recently. And that is something I thought would never happen. The problem I had yesterday was: I feel a little harried with all that I need to do. I need to get an application for a passport. I have been running that through my head all day (and a lot of last night). I was really exhausted yesterday after everything was done. I am still having trouble realizing how terribly real it is. I am finding it hard to believe also... Seriously, I was a bit concerned. I get paranoid sometimes and it is probably nothing.... just... well I guess just tired. I know that it will change. If the painting remains, I will be happy. I think what I would like though, is not to feel that it is constantly in jeopardy. But now I want to get home. Everyone is sleepy or sleeping and people are getting cranky. Well not me of course, I am always mild mannered and easy going.